…you can hate a place with all your heart and soul and still be homesick for it.
—Joseph Mitchell (via observando)
If I ever actually get officially employed I have to switch banks because they will only direct deposit into us bank accounts. That’s enough to quit my job.
I love entertaining but I hate people. We are having two other couples that Charlie works with over for drinks and games tonight. Whatever we are playing is like mafia vampire dungeons and dragons so I’m a little out of my depth but whatever. I’m going to go home take half an oxy and maybe a glass of wine while I prep delicious snacks and dye my hair. Because I am a killer housewife. And because I get excited about this kind of thing.
Couple friends are weird but ideal. Because realistically they only want to hang out for a limited and appropriate amount of time before they want to go home take off their pants and hang out with each other. I know this because sometimes I am the couple friend and I’m fun for like two hours and then I want to go home get naked, smoke, have some weird conversations about nonsense and the world with my best friend and take a nice snooze.
Listen, I eat a Popsicle in bed laughing about being an adult pretty much every day. Couple friends are just the way to mix things up enough that my life isn’t totally predictable.
Convinced I have radial nerve palsy from sleeping with my arms tucked up under my chin like a fucking weirdo. Or I have carpal tunnel from internetting so much.
I wrote a huge long post about my family and my money values but I can condense it down to this. I grew up with money that I had no understanding or control over but that controlled me.
As an adult having money and having nice things makes me feel safe, comfortable and powerful. It makes me feel legitimate. I don’t necessarily think that’s wrong but I also don’t think it’s probably how I want to live my life permanently.
Seriously the biggest benefit of being off birth control is being able to drink coffee wow I missed this stuff it’s delicious!!!!!!!!!1!!!1!1!!1!1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!